should not be up right now...should not be up right now.... oh well. tonight was amazing. this past week overall, has been amazing.. i've learned a lot of shit about myself. for example, that i rely on others way too much for a false sense of security. as or recent, i have understood that i am worth more than that. i don't need another to define me; to provide me with a false sense of identity. you cannot force others to love who you are even when convinced that you could be good for them. and so, i am left with nothing but a complete sense of satisfaction in knowing that i am okay being alone. well, not completely alone...i am fortunate to have a few that i call my "true" friends! and thank god for them. because, realistically, who wants to feel completely alone?